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There needs to be a better approach to victims of sexual violence
I am a nurse who has worked at a rural hospital. My husband is a board-certified family medicine doctor. In the fall of 2020, I was raped by my massage therapist. I know that everyone has an opinion of what they would do in that situation, and I was pr…
Medical residents signed up to live in the hospital, not to die there
I saw a tweet recently from a medical resident training at another hospital that really hit home for me: “In response to a rumor that health care workers who treat COVID patients will be prioritized for vaccination in our health system, one of my co-re…
The family super-spreader event: thoughts on a COVID-19 Thanksgiving
It was Black Friday, and as I held her hand, I knew that she would be dead within the hour. My breath was stale inside my N95. The yellow isolation gown was moist and clingy, and the fogged-up goggles gave me that feeling that I was on an extended dee…
Thought disorder, clinical silos, prediction and prevention vs. diagnosing what’s in front of you
I have worked part-time as an applied behavior analysis (ABA) therapist for the last few years. The job isn’t complicated, and where I am, one doesn’t need a specifically tailored education or license to practice under supervision. An ABA&#…
Why we’ll never eradicate malignancy in medical training
For a bunch of folks striving to stomp out malignant processes in our patients, we sure tolerate a fair amount of destructive behavior among training programs. I’ll be the first to say I’m not the most delicate flower in the garden. Before pursuing med…
Nobody should ever be forced to make a medical decision on the basis of congressional hearings
On October 12th, 2020, I underwent a LEEP procedure to remove the distal portion of my cervix. In the wake of COVID-19, with PPE and willing staff in short supply to complete Pap smears in clinic, a colleague and I were trialing self-swab HPV testing &…
Help the public understand what more can be done to support loved ones affected by a serious illness
“Is ere anything more we could have done?” I am not the first person to ask this question, and I will not be the last. This past week I learned that an ex-boyfriend from my graduate school years, who had moved overseas in 2016 and disappeared off the g…
It is time to pause, reflect, and decide what being a physician means to us
A bird slams into the glass. A bird slams into the glass. A bird slams into the glass. Over and over again, head first, determined to defeat its own reflection. A headbutt of bravado. I watched it, time and time again. From the inside, I studied the do…
The final insult after my husband died alone
This new virus is changing everyday life-hospitals are doing their best to protect their staff and patients. One thing I’ve learned is that they need to do a better job of communicating with families. My husband was 70 years old when he died of …
Wife swap: a physician’s toxic work environment
“It’s not my fault that you chose to have children.” Years after leaving my job, I still hear my boss’s words in my head. He did not want to get married and or have children. He made that clear during my interview. He was also …
